conclusions

1. I cannot live by myself
2. Living by yourself sux ass
3. Cooking and cleaning on an everyday basis is so NOT my thing

i finally got thru to my parents. ...
my aunt talks to me like i'm 2 years old. not in a condescending way, but she keeps referring to herself in the third person, as if i dunno what her name is! wonder if that's how she talks to Cassandra... if so, no wonder she's so stupid. my aunt's nice, but weird.
my grandma STILL doesn't know who i am. last time (2002):
me: may I speak to "___" (grandpa's full name; cuz i didn't wanna talk to grandma)
grandma: who are you?
me: *gives up* mimi
grandma: who?
me: mimi!! (repeat this and above line)
finally, grandma: OH! mimi!!! .... it took about 2 full minutes...
and now this morning. Mind you, my dad is there, at their house. and my dad only has one child. and my dad likes me!!! (cf. hates me)
me: Hi nainai! it's mimi. (nainai = what i'm supposed to call her)
grandma: who?
me: mimi!
grandma: ah! weiwei!!! hi weiwei!!! (weiwei = my cousin. BOY cousin. POST-PUBERSCENT BOY COUSIN!!! ... therefore, low voice! ... so it was in the morning and i just woke up, STILL, i do not sound like a man!!)
me: no, MIMI!!!
grandma: *thinks, my dad says smt* ... oh! mimi!!!

and i saw Awie on the subway today. didn't say hi. Awie scares me. she's fucking crazy... on sugar pills all day everday at every single moment! ... but i'm happy to report her crazy-ass acne has mostly cleared up.

and i saw Boy-girl this morning. ya, boy-girl. i dunno her name. hehehee... wonder if her and Kevin actually went out... hehehee... funnay stuff. (boy girl used to like Andrew [and it's scary when she likes u, cuz she'll follow u around everywhere]. and Kevin used to like me [from grade 4 'til gr.8... or was it gr.7? i forget. i was a bitch to him, dunno how he could possibly like me for 3+ years] ... anyways. ya. and so me and andrew went out, and i think kevin and boy/girl went out too. heheheee... cool.