crazy ppl

crazy girl... ur dad has a fever and you freak the hell out, but when grandpa's heart stopped, got intubated, almost died, and then had a pacemaker implanted, u don't even peep. gebus. why does grandma like u again?!?!? my extended family is soooooooooooo fucked up.

i think it's settled that i'm going back this year... for maybe a month. but i still hafta run it by my PI. bah...

... this trip will be just me running around from hospital to hospital... fun times... pay $1500 to run around shanghai in boiling weather... not even to shop, only from hospital to hospital [and shopping in china with munkee = not being able to breathe]. so much for a well-deserved vacation. this sux. ppl i like shouldn't be allowed to get sick/ill/old. yup. if i do go back, it'll be beginning-mid-june 'til early july... 'til just after yaya's bday... maybe after my fake bday. who knows. but not after that, cuz i'll die from the heat... these boobs weren't made for hot weather (ppl will think i'm a prostitute even more ... so NOT looking forward to going back it's not even funny... maybe if i lose like a hundred pounds [cuz normal weight ppl here = waaay overweight in china - see, they're fucked up. even CC would be considered fat... riiiight] and then got my boobs shrunk down to an AAA cup, i'll fit in there and won't get 'i wanna rape u' stares from guys and 'i hate you' stares from girls. i hate chinese people. hate them. and this time, i'll be READY to pound on their goddam feet, throw rocks at goddam cars, and hoark and spit on those goddam idiots. i also wanna bring my supersoaker and aim it well at the smokers. i think that'll be fun. HAHAHA!!!