my stupid day

firstly, i'd like to state that anal ppl piss me off.

got in a fight with alex last night. ya, a fight, with a friend from high school. weird huh?!?! it's so stupid! seriously man, invite whoever the hell you wanna invite!! i couldn't give a half a rat's fuck about it! but I'm not gonna go if i don't feel comfortable going, and guess what! it's not an ultimatum, because i ALWAYS have a choice as to what parties I want to go to and which ones i do not want to go to! it's a free country. u can do whatever u feel is right. i can do whatever i feel is right. and even if the entire world thinks i'm bitter about that using bitch, well, that's just too bad. she's never apologized to me about everything's she's done, and so it's just too bad. she can die, and the world will be a better place. maybe i'm a "bad" person to wish that upon someone. but if u knew her like i did, if she monopolized ur time, up to 4 hrs before every single fucking math test in grades 9 thru 11 when it matters to no fucking person in the entire fucking world what ur marks are then, and when u were willing to get drunk, WASTED rather, and in grade 10, in order to NOT talk to her, u know that there's something wrong there and u might have a SLIGHT understanding of what i went thru with her! i literally drank half a bottle of wine (and i don't like wine!!!!!! in fact, i really dislike wine, unless it's ice wine!) in order to avoid talking to her!!!! so fuck it. invite her. maybe she'll nag u and bother u and use u for the next five years. see how u like it. and then tell me if u ever want to see her again. pick ur battles wisely.

in other news. i got in trouble with the LAS today. it was so stupid. u know, when no one tells u about rules and procedure, it's not so fair that i got in trouble. i can honestly say that i didn't know. cuz well, i didn't know!!! no one ever told me that there were training sessions for using that equipment!!! All i was asked was to produce my certificate from U of T saying that i finished the animal handling course, which i did, and i KNOW how to handle my rats. but no, i've never use the equipment before, and no, i was never told that there were training sessions that covered these things, and no, i've never been trained by u guys. no one told me!! gawd! how many times do i hafta say it?!?! I DIDN'T KNOW!!!

what else? oh... i told Tianmei that leehom may be filming on campus. i know she's really excited about it... but i'm MORE excited about it!! fuck!! i used to live ON CAMPUS!!! i literally spent 99% of my ENTIRE childhood on that campus - eating, sleeping, going to school, playing, everything!!! and now i live 5minutes away from it!! ARRRGH!!!! i sooooooo wish i can go back this december! and i bumped into Mir today, and she said she's going to SH this december too!!! gworsh!!! and Ade, how do u have a chinese passport!?!? i don't have one!! no fair.... *sniff* ... and i wanna be HongKong-nese.

lastly, girls are so fussy. wrinkle cream already?!?! at the age of 24!?!?!? why?!?!?! ... again, WHY?!?!?!... annie and i got our skin "tested" today at the biotherm counter (we were tired, wanted to sit, and it took like 2 minutes each). apparently, my skin's elasticity, for my age, was off the chart it was so good! hahahaa! instead of a number, i got "EE" which meant WOW! ... but my skin is very very dehydrated. so the girl asked me "do u use toner"... to which i responded "uh... what's that?!" ... and then both annie and the counter girl stared me like i'm stupid.... so they explained, and i asked more stupid questions... so apparently, u're supposed to wash ur face, then wipe toner all over ur face, and THEN use moisturizer!! did u know that?! i obviously didn't! so totally obviously didn't! hahahaaa!!! and apparently, that's why my face is weirdly oily, cuz my skin's trying to protect itself!!! so if i wipe oily stuff all over my face, my face WON"T be oily?! seems counterintuitive doesn't it? .... i'll try it for a week, see what happens. tell me if u see a difference, to those of u who see me, EVER.... so that's just Ade then... cuz no one else sees me on a weekly basis. 'cept maybe andrew. but he's a guy and therefore not so noticing of things.... like that i had BANGS!!!!

and i just googled my grandma's name again. it's just soooooooo friggin' cool how i can find her on google. sooooooooooooo cool!!!! i don't think u can say that about many other grandparents! esp. chinese grandparents, in china!! my grandpa's name is google-able too, but the i can only find him associated to a book that my grandparents co-authored together. KEWL! ... and my other grandparents are just non-google-able. i'm so proud of my grandma. i wish she lived long enough to know about google, and i wish she knew that her name is google-able now. and that her books are a staple in the classrooms, even 'til this day. every kid in that field msut've heard of her. now THAT is cool. and that her grad student is now the head of psychology at the univ. that's so cool too, esp. since he used to come visit her all the time, and me and cassandra have met him... i think he was at the funeral... he msut've been... it was a big blur ... of events, of ppl, of everything... and lotsa ppl that i don't know and that don't know me... 'cept my grade 1 math teacher's husband, who knew who i was and was at the funeral (weirdness much?!).... i was THAT good at math THAT early?!?!? seriously?!?! i never even went to class!! and he, who probably never met me, would come to my grandmother's funeral?!?!? i don't think my math teacher was ever cassandra's teacher... maybe there's a connection there i don't know about... oh well... no one's ever told me.