resolution

oh ade, i love how u leave comments! i like comments. comments are great!

so, now that i've finally made up my mind about all this shit, i'm quite relieved. i'm in a MUCH much happier state of being today. i think i've realized that stress really gets to me... or i guess relationship stress, re: all relationships, really get to me. and that resolutions make me happier. i'm happy with this resolution. some people won't be, sorry dan, but it's what i have to do in order not to be miserable and to not hate more people. he doesn't know what i've resolved, and i will never tell him. but if he's not stupid, he'll figure it out, and he will NOT ask me about it. in the end, i still don't think i did anything wrong. i was always true to myself. i didn't lie about anything, i did'nt make anything up, i didn't do anything that i regret. i've always hated her. i've never wanted to see her since she left UTSC. no, since we started university. i've avoided certain routes around school so that i wouldn't bump into her. heck, i've stayed at school late so i wouldn't be on the same bus as her! so it should come as no surprise as to why and how i want to see her less than i wanna see a horror movie (if u know me, u'll know i avoid them and their commercials at muchos costs). so, i don't feel bad at all about what happened. he should've known me enough to not even try to "debate" me on this. he should've also known that he has no right to teach me any "life lessons", or give me any advice on how to be a good and sociable human being. I think most will agree that i know that better than him. i think most would agree that i have way more social skills. maybe not in terms of with the drinking and drug-dealing crowds, but that's because i choose not to hang out with that crowd. i like my real friends. i get along well with them. i have fun with them. i don't feel awkward with them. and, i also get along with a lot of strangers. maybe not in high school, but definetely around the hospital, and in other places where i find people of similar intelectual potential (therefore, high school is a write-off!). [revision: high school does not include anyone i know and like (most of tops... excl. filip, i don't like filip and i don't think he's at all smart)... it does however incl. my ex *shudder*, and the rest of the what, 1000 stupids in the school? i mean students...]
u can't choose ur family, but u can choose ur friends. and i choose the ones i have and like (and maybe leehom too).